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When will i ever find what i m truly looking for? will the search never end? will i never feel that i m finally moving towards it? will i always feel that i have in my hand what has been bestowed upon me? m i lost? m i even supposed to be in a direction where i m supposed to want something meant for me n actually get it? wat is that feeling? y can ti accept things the way they are? y cant i value the love beauty n grace that god bestows on me n be happy with it? y do i have an urge for this search? y do i have this never dying curiosity within me? m i supposed to leave everything n follow my heart in the direction of that search? or m i supposed to continue my lovable peaceful life n always onder in my head wat i have been yearning for? m i supposed to break a shell n step out of it or m i just suffering from a unnecessary feeling of discontent? i dont even know anymore wat to believe n who to listen to!!