Not a ring fighter or a warrior but i was just the "non-violent" but super determined fighter in life- and by that i mean.. i never learnt to give up!!! if i wanted something with all my heart, n i always wanted things with all my heart... never knew what being half-hearted was all about... so when i wanted something, i would just not give up.. i would fight till the last breath.. fall n stand again.. break myself n heal back.. but not give up....
in kindergarden, my report read - "this girl demonstrates amazing perseverance" - i understood the meaning of the word may be ten years later but still had it in me when i could barely speak right...
my fav teacher at school hugged me hard when i ranked in the class - bcz she always said she saw this fire in me... she'd smile at me with pride.....
my prof at clg awarded me once, just for my "killer instinct"...
my mom would instill that belief in me that i could make it... just by saying that she knew i could make it...
how strong n how long was all that meant to be???
is it worth having the killer instinct??? do i still have it in me to go ahead n fetch every inch of my dream??? does it ignite me inside out? does it burn me to see me where i m n not where i want to be??? or did i learn to take life with a pinch of salt???
i m yet to find out...
when i left home to be a part of this world, everyone told me that its gonna be a struggle.... u are too soft to take it... n i was sure i was going out there.... just to face it!!!
m i still too soft to bear it all??? have i grown n m growing to be a part of it??? i m still to find out!!
i have made decisions- right or wrong is not an objective of interest to me... i m happy i just refused to stand there n watch.. n i have been at the stands watching too a lot of times.. i have had a share of both.. but has that led me to a goal or just led me off track.. i m yet to find out!!!
all i know deep in my heart is that God loves me n he's always there with me... n wherever he leads me i'll walk with him... bcz when u walk with DAD, u dont c where the road leads.... all that matters is that u have the most beautiful time with him...
so does it matter where life leads me.. i dont know but m i willing to make the most of every moment, no matter what!!! YES, certainly... n that is definitely something i have learnt after stepping into life!!!
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